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The Twins

in the spirit of transparency and always honoring the babies who are a part of our family, no matter how short their lives here were, we are heartbroken to tell you we lost our twins. although we are no strangers to loss, it never gets easier and the pain never really goes away. almost exactly a year after the loss of our sweet Logan, we were thrilled to find out we were pregnant again and shocked when they found two! I feel like the Lord was preparing my heart for twins longbefore we ever thought of trying again, and this loss has been especially hard to accept. I would have NEVER chosen this to be my "thorn" in life, but praise God for the amazing ministry that has been born from our loss.
I am sad and even a little hurt that we have to endure more pain, but I'm so thankful that God doesn't change based on my feelings. He's the same loving father who has been sending heart-shaped leaves to me for the past year as reminders of our precious son. I am weary from loss and want to run far from the possibility of another, yet I know the promise I have been given so I will continue to hope and trust in the Lord.
“Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!” Luke 1:45

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