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It's taken us several years to finally come to a place where we felt we could share our story in this form.

If you know us, then you know we have been willing to talk about our babies any chance we can, but to write it down can be a different experience. It isn’t in the moment, it isn’t with others, it’s time alone with our memories.

For me (Josh), it felt like every time I was ready to write something down, we would get pregnant again, or go through another loss, putting a stop to my desire to relive our experiences in writing.

It is our desire that through this site, we can share our struggles and the hope that has sustained us. Not because we are strong, or know the right things to say or do, but because in our brokenness God has given us a desire to see His name lifted up.

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