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Logan's First Birthday

today it's been a year since I last held my baby boy. It's been the hardest year I've ever lived. there were days that I thought I may actually explode from the grief I was experiencing. for months I thought I'd never be myself again. I was right. I'm different and it's for the better. God has been faithful to his promise to love and comfort me through my pain. He has started a great work in me that I hope never stops. I have been dreading this day because I thought I may slip back into that hole and not be able to get back out. however, to my surprise, today has been a great day. the calls, texts, and sweet gifts that have been given to me have been such a huge blessing! even more than those, the prayers that have been and will continue to be prayed over our family are absolutely overwhelming. thank you, sweet friends and family, for covering us in prayer today 💗 God honored your prayers and has comforted and energized me in a way I'm not sure I've ever felt before. i am still so sad that I'm not putting one candle on a cake for my sweet Logan to blow out, but I have so much hope for the future and a peace that can only come from the Lord. I am so thankful that God chose to use Logan to touch so many lives and I cannot wait to hug that little boy one day ☺️💙
“For our momentary light affliction is producing for us an absolutely incomparable eternal weight of glory. So we do not focus on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.”
2 Corinthians 4:17-18

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