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Logan's Due Date

today is the day we thought we would meet our little boy. the past five months have been the hardest i've ever lived. i've felt every emotion possible, all at once and by themselves. time stood still and simultaneously flew by. there are no words this side of heaven that can truly describe how painful this loss has been. BUT today and everyday, I know this to be true: God is still good. He still loves me and only He can see the big picture. this verse has constantly been sent to, heard, or read by me since September:
"Look, I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go. I will bring you back to this land, for I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you." (Genesis 28:15 HCSB)
God's promises are true and I can't wait to see how He fulfills this in my life!
happy due date, Logan! we love you and can't wait to see you again ❤️

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